The past 6 months I’ve been on a journey. One where I try to lose weight and hopefully change the way I feel and view myself.
It started in January…
I had just come back from visiting my family and attending a couple of weddings in New Zealand. While we were there, someone (who shall remain nameless) made an offhanded comment about how people must think that I’m pregnant a lot because I’m so big. The thing that struck me was the person that said it, said it in front of a large group and had no concern for how it would make me feel. I know I am fat, I don’t need other people to point it out to me. I was fat and unhappy and having someone point out just how fat I was, made me more unhappy which tended to mean I would eat (or drink) more and this just meant an awful downwards spiral effect.
This comment, alongside the fact that my clothes were becoming rather snug, and I had to send back a XXL dress (that I was planning to wear to one of the weddings) because it was too small, made me decide to finally do something about my weight (rather the eating a family sized block of chocolate to drown my sorrows). Fast forward to landing back in the UK and I began investigating different weight loss groups, before finally deciding to give Weight Watchers a go.
The reordered dress
The hardest thing for me wasn’t the tracking or changing how much I ate, it was walking into that first meeting and saying I needed help to lose weight. I remember thinking that everybody there would be super skinny and judge me on how much I weighed, but it wasn’t like that. There were people of all shapes and sizes. Some, like me, beginning their own journeys and others who were further into it.
Since beginning, I have changed meetings but I’m so glad I did! I reached my 5% goal with my first leader and there was barely any sort of recognition. She stuck the sticker into my book and handed it back. Nothing mentioned about it at all (I only found out about the 5% certificate when I went to the new meeting and saw someone being given one and my new leader gladly gave me one.) My new leader celebrates every achievement big and small! Having a great leader keeps you motivated and I have found is such an important part of the journey. It’s the little things as well. She’s set up a Facebook group for her members where if you are feeling unmotivated or having a bad day, her or other members will support you. (I don’t expect her to ever read this but Thank You!)
If I had to go back in time I would have joined sooner. The fear of entering the meeting that first time stopped me from joining quite a few times, but now I’m so glad I did. The amount of support I get from my leader and other members as well as the people I talk to on twitter is phenomenal. I would recommend anyone who is wanting to get support to lose weight try Weight Watchers. The freedom of choosing what you eat but having the portion sizes there is great. There is also the chance to gain extra points for activity in case I decide to have a night out, or an extra bar of chocolate.
I put lose two stones on my list because I know that there is a chance I might slip up and have a bad week. If I do lose 2 stones, it means that I would be in the healthy range for my height which is something I would be proud of. I have lost 49 and a half pounds all together on plan and next week will hopefully see me reach 50 pounds. With my leader, I set myself small (and achievable) 5% goals. My next one is 30%. I know I still have a while to go before I get to goal weight but when I think of how far I have come, I know I can do it.
Total so far: 3 and a half lbs/ 28 lbs
Only 24 and a half to go!